Praying For You

Father, I'm prayin' for a friend he and I are pretty close, and out of all my friends for this one I'm concerned the most. He say he readin' daily but he ain't really learnin'.He been in church but say that he ain't moved by any sermon. His face weak, he ain't prayed in a week, he wake up and just weep with his face in the sink Lord, you gotta help my man, I'm prayin' for him daily, he ain't sinned but it just seem as if he goin' crazy. He say he feelin' trapped, can't even head up the mall coz every lady's half-dressed temptin' him to lust and fall. He keep the TV off, videos just make him feel that he ain't really nothin' without money, girls and shiny wheels. The other day he told me that he felt less a man coz he ain't have a five-year plan or a piece of land and man it's crazy coz his family think so much of him, plus he wants a godly wife who always showin' love for him but he's strugglin', even though he talk to me, I tell him what to do but he don't listen when he oughta' be. I'm scared for him coz there's people that look up to him, he got some younger siblings who been changed by what he's done for them but is it done for him, Lord don't let it be, if he don't wanna talk to you then Father hear from me, is it done for him, Lord don't let it be, if he don't wanna talk to you then Father hear from me...

Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, I'm prayin' for you
Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, yeah, I'm prayin' for you...

God, his condition is worsen since we were last conversed and I'm with him now and he ain't doin' well and this I'm certain. He say he tryna' trust you, doesn't wanna disgust you but he was in the mist of sinners and did not discuss you and just today his anxiety's got the best of him, he knows Christ but for hours refuse to rest in Him, he's not the best of men but Lord I know he really loves you and I can't understand why lately he's not thinkin' of you. People trust this dude, you could crush this dude, Father he needs more of you I pray you touch this dude, what can I say to him? I'm determined to pray for him Father empty and brake him I pray you'll just have your way with him, coz there's a change in him and the effects are strong, I pray you open up his heart before the next song and when he gets home, I pray he'll open up the sixty-six book love letter you wrote and soak it up coz he ain't hearin' You and he ain't feelin' me and God I know it's killin' You because it's killin' me and matter of fact there's somethin' else he's concealin' see, the person that I've been prayin' about is really me...

Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, I'm prayin' for you
Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, yeah, I'm prayin' for you...



Yea... This song probably defines my life right now..
Blessings, Matthew Beaty, Praying for you. :)

Another day another dollar..

Hey Everybody, 

I'm sure some of you are wondering how I'm doing.. Well, I've been better, but I've also been worse.. the days seem to creep by slower each day closer to graduation I get.. I wish I were allowed to have a camera with me during training hours, because we've done some pretty cool stuff! I think my favorite training so far is blood labs. The first rule of blood labs is "don't talk about blood labs" (which if you haven't seen "fight club" you won't know where that is from) but since none of you are medics in training it's ok ;) It's a big room, where the only light is different colored strobe lights flashing like crazy all over so it's really hard to see, and then they have german hard rock/metal (Rammstein) playing SUPER loud, and then they have these cool $20,000 manikins that breath, scream, have pulses, move... all that jazz... ;) there's fake blood all over them, and all over the place, and an instructor randomly walks around with a spray bottle full of it spraying you if you aren't controlling the bleeding. It was a huge adrenaline rush going in there. Plus I like Rammstein, so instead of distracting me like it's supposed to, it pumped me up. This coming week we're going to FTX (field training exercise) so I'll be out of comm until next tuesday or so. (No phones or electronics of any kind) it's going to be fun though ;) After that, I'm done training, and all that's left is getting ready to go home!! 

I need some stuff to take pictures of! But the only places I've really been here are kinda boring.. I mean who takes pictures at the mall unless you're with good friends?? I mean the Hacienda club across the street is kinda fun, but the only time we ever go there is after dark, and then we go outside and the only light is from all the strobe lights, and it's loud from the jukebox :) so yea, it's fun to dance out there, but unlike line dancing, there's not any kind of lighting for pictures!! lol 

My flag :) 

So anyway, this morning was a really great time for me. Most wouldn't understand, but those who do know what I'm talking about ;) 

Well, today I'm going to do some shopping to get all the stuff that I need for the FTX week, so I guess I'm going to go.. plus I'm talking to some friends on the phone right now.. (love you Hamachers) :) 

Anyway, God Bless you all, I'll work on finding some more stuff to take pictures of before I leave!! Have a great week!