Life, love, and the persuit of happyness.. (ok, so I didn't make it up, but it sounded cool..;p)

Well, thought I'd give everybody an update on me! :) I've been pretty busy this week, so that's why I haven't posted much. I've had two social outings in the past week, which is cool, since I haven't been able to go anywhere up till now unless I wanted to go by myself.. last weekend I went to a little cook-out party at the park here (which is pretty nice btw.. I'll have to take a few pix sometime, but it would be better in springtime) and then last night I went to a restaurant called Chili's with some people. Anyway, I'm officially done with all my death by powerpoint training, and now it's on to hands-on stuff.. YES!! I'm happy about that..
I'm doing pretty good overall, I'm kinda sick with a head/chest cold virus that's going around our company right now, but I'm surviving :) I'm still struggling with being unpopular, and boredom and stuff.. and still occasionally battling off the weirdos who think that just because I don't spend my weekends at the strip club or surfing porn online I must be gay.. it's really annoying..
I've spent a lot of time praying and asking God about what I need to be doing with my future.. right now I *really* want to get married and have a family of my own, but there are a lot of things to be done before I'm ready for that! I'm thinking about going through the Army MD course which would take about 3 years and I would be a doctor as well as an officer which is much better pay than I would have as enlisted in three years. I'm also strongly considering deployment in the next 12 months sometime, I think now is as good a time as any, and that way I can make some extra money while I'm deployed to get me through the next few years.. I've heard of people coming back from the middle east with as much as $50,000 in their bank accounts. Talk about a jump start! Also, if I get deployed now instead of like 3 years from now then I will probably only get deployed once or twice more while I'm in the service, and that would probably be after I become a doctor if that's what I decide to do. On the other hand I could just go with the civilian doctor program and let the Army help me pay for it, but that would take about 6 years if I'm remembering correctly.. Sometimes I feel like Charlie brown ("everything I touch get's ruined..") so I'm not sure what to try, but at any rate I'd appreciate your prayers! I want to make sure I don't put my desires in front of what is best for everybody else, yet at the same time I want to make sure that God's will is done in whatever I do. Anything I do now will have affects long into the future, and I want to make sure I choose the right future now, before I mess something up along the way.
Anyway, all that jumbling ramble to say, I'm open to advice, but most of all prayer. Maybe I'm just getting tunnel vision, but it seems like I'm lost and alone and every path seems full of holes and I don't know what to do.. even choices I have every day are becoming more and more difficult.. Sometimes it seems like everything is clear and simple, and the next minute it all collapses and I'm back at block one, wondering what to do next. LOL I'd better shut up or nobody will read this post!!! ;P
Aaaanyywayyyyy......
I have 38 days until I'll be home, and hopefully those will zip by quickly!
I'll really be on my own around the beginning of May when I officially will be on my own dime. Hope my family has fun in Georgia and wherever else they roam!! :) I'm probably going to be living in the basement apartment for a few months, but by the end of this year I'm probably going to be either in civilian college, army med school, or deployed overseas in a combat zone :) The last is for sure the easiest, but I'm not sure if I'm ready to say goodbye to everything I know for 12-18 months..Well, until next time, God's blessings upon you as you read this, and into the days and months ahead! I'm praying for you!!
Matthew- the unwilling adult ;) being a kid was so much easier.... ;p
ttfn!!

An LOL moment from the archives of Matthew Beaty:

~thou shalt not weigh more than thy refridgerator

~The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one.

~I can resist everything except temptation.

~Experience is that marvelous thing that enables you to recognize a mistake when you make it again.

~Build a man a fire and he'll be warm for a day. Set a man on fire and he'll be warm for the rest of his life.

~Laugh and the whole world laughs with you.............. cry and you have to blow your nose.

~Children should be seen and not ..................spanked or grounded.

~A penny saved is...................... not much.

*prepares to be shot by the females reading this one..*

Yesterday scientists revealed that beer contains small traces of female hormones. To prove their theory, the scientists fed 100 men 12 pints of beer and observed that 100% of them gained weight, talked excessively without making sense, became emotional, and couldn't drive. -- No further testing is planned.


LOL!!

An apple a day keeps the doctor away, but a good laugh every day puts him in the poorhouse!